Plague of my past

After these many days of blogging dormancy, finally my creative instinct reached little higher than witty one liners and barrier of 140 chars, wrote a poem, rhyme is fractured as usual and meaning is again not what it feels like at first, here goes :

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alone there i was
on a revolving stool of bar,
music was loud,dim was the light
guess it was all the disguise
to hide the pain in weary eyes
with every sip every mist,dew and ice
the booze touched my marrow,
but something didn't felt nice
i returned to my heart
asked dude are you alright
came the outburst, came the cry,
you asking me now?? yelled my heart
just when u are this high???
the pinching silence suddenly
crawled over ear to ear,
music was gone,there was complete dark,
is this the sound inside me, that made this mark?
i just paused the time,
slipped aside the wine,
now it was me and my heart,
moment was surreal,thoughts famine
am helplessly watching,
voice i heard began to confine
tears were now visible
and the red eyes,the drenched look,
the despair,the crooked design,
ah! my heart i haven't been fair
i was not right....
plague of past hovering in front of my eyes,
now that i realize
the place is not for me
not for you my heart
lets move dear,
its not a place for us to Shine
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